Everything all into one.

Went to the father's orchard in Balik Pulau today.
Sat in the stream while texting and reading Vampire Diaries.
All I could hear was the rush of the mini waterfall behind me.
Serene. (:

It's David Archuleta's birthday today.
However, it's also Jimmy's death day.
Amazing skills. Great God-given talent... Such a pity he left so early.

I have absolutely nothing to talk about.
Niente. Nada. Zap.
Fine I added the 'Zap' just because it sounded nice.
Great. Now I'm sprouting nonsense.

I'm going to criticize people who blog about every single they do every single minute of their day like...

I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
Just looked at the vitamin bottle.
I'm debating whether should I take the vitamins.
I'm deciding not to take the vitamins.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm hungry.
My eyes are getting heavy.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I just yawned.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm thinking about my yawn 15 seconds ago.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
Someone on TV is talking about reproduction of spiders.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm staring at the computer.
I'm getting bored.

How to Annoy Your Parents.

Re-publicized my blog.
Are you happy now, Jeffrey?

Anyway, I woke up this morning feeling fine.
Had an awesome dream last night.
Then BAM!- I realized it was the 27th.
TWENTY-SEVENTH.
Great. Theory homework not completed yet.
6 more pages.
Dear harmonization, you're very, very troublesome.

ARGH.
Must. Finish. Theory.

How long am I going to procrastinate?
I'm going up at 12 pm to complete that theory homework.
No turning back.
Mesti buat.
Sudah 27hb sekarang.
Tidak boleh melengah-lengahkannya lagi.
Habiskan habiskan habiskan.

Soliloquy ended.

"You may delay, but time will not."

-Benjamin Franklin (1706-1790)

Telling someone why your love them is like explaining what water tastes like.

http://awesomeness31.tumblr.com/

Of feelings and confessions.

DAMN IT.

I just re-read my title.
It's lame and I don't give a damn.
I noticed I cursed right after typing the title.
Not so much of an average, normal teenage girl now.
Oh well, I guess I'm not like them.

Anyway, blog is currently privatized.
I'll probably change my mind and publicize it again sooner or later.

This is great. I have absolutely nothing to talk about.
Blank.

Right. Confessions.
I really miss you.
I don't really believe in love at first sight.
Inner beauty counts a lot more than outer beauty.
The thing is, I saw right through you the first time we met.
Not in the whole Cinderella lala fairytale kind of way (was it Cinderella?),
but in an unexplainable one.

Great. Blank again.
I just want to go to sleep.
I want my pillow and my orange blanket and my beloved bed.
I want to curl up under the blanket, pray that it rains, hopefully it'll rain, then fall asleep thinking about nothing.

I can't concentrate on talking about one specific title today.
Hello, Captain Obvious.
Anyway, back to the initial topic.
I really miss you.
Christmas always makes me miss you.
I want to see you again.
You're like that one person who keeps my sanity in place.
Even if I fell in love again with someone new, it'll never be the way I loved you.
You'll never know...

***

Done. *shudders*
I realized I don't do the feelings talk easily nowadays.
My journal has been untouched for 2 weeks, if I'm not mistaken.
Great. So now I lock everything up. Bloody great.

You know people say, "When God closes a door, he opens a window"?
Where, oh where is my window?
It's hard, but I'm struggling, I'm coping.
It feels like you never even existed in my life now.
I doubt I ever existed in yours.

It's Christmas eve~

*•*

*♥•*

*♥♫♥*

*•♫•♥•*

*♥•♫•♫♥*

*♥•♦♫•♥•♥*

*♥☺♥•♥•☺♥•*

*♥•♥♠♫•♥#♥•♥*

*♥♫•♥♫•♥♫♥•♫♥*

*♥♥☺♥♫♥•♫♥☺♥♥*

*♥♥♫♥•♣♥♫♥♣•♫♥♥*

*♥♥♣♫♥•♥♫•♥♥♫ ♣♥♥*

............ ╬╬╬╬╬ .........

Credits to (the other) Jason.

I'm trying, I really am...

I can't help it.

I still have feelings for you.

No matter how many times I tell myself

that I'm better off without you

(and you're better off without me),

a part of me just won't let go.

I hate it when these emotions strike again.

I'm too stubborn sometimes.

"Unrequited love is a painful sin."

- The Master.