I hope you read this, Kevin. Yes, I'm starting to like that name a whole lot.

"Otherwise I'll do it in hell. Not assuming. I'll end up there."

NOHHH. How can you say that? ): It broke my heart when I read that message you sent. I was instantly reminded of a message you sent last time which said something like your life isn't worth it in the end. No darling, you're so freaking worth it. Your life is a blessing, I tell you.

You're NOT going to hell. Between you and I, I think I'm the one who'll probably end up there. I've messed this life up so much, sometimes I wonder if God can take it. You don't know how badly I screwed up, A1.

Granted, I know you have your demons to fight too, but trust me, dear boy, you'll win this battle. You are such a strong young man. sure, no one lives a perfect life, but I see you trying to make yours nearly perfect. I see all the goodness of the world in your heart. The little things you do, they mean everything to others. The lame jokes you crack, the insults you give me, the smiles you throw around every time you meet your friends, the way you speak to your elders, everything. They shape you, and they make you beautiful.

No, I'm wasn't kidding when I said you're beautiful inside and out. I know I said I was kidding, but I wasn't. It was the solid truth. There's so much kindness, so much strength and so much love in you. Don't you see? A person like you, -even if you should mess up now and then- will never go to hell.

Your life is worth living. Remember that day when I said I'd sacrifice my life for a few people? You're one of them. I'd do anything to keep such wonderful people around. Trust me, boy, you have a big heart. People love you for that. I'll never forgive you if you don't believe me on this one. You're my best friend, man, and I want you to know that you're amazing. So amazing I can't believe it sometimes.

You are loved. So, so much.

Trust me.